The Wax Paper

Closet MW

 

Marylin Winkle

CLOSET REMINISENCES

I. Why I’ve Never Owned a Pair of Rainboots

I once danced barefoot, 

splashing in puddles on concrete, diving

through wetness to other dimensions-- 

not a toddler in floral, but a goddess, 

a voice that thundered everyone else inside. 

The rain was mine. 

Sometimes shoes get wet. 

My father rushed through thunderstorms 

to school, flushed and soggy-socked. 

At home, I marveled my cold, pale toes, 

shriveled like Grandma’s, except 

sunning would never bring her back.

When my ex moved to Texas,

I told him, “Take anything but the cat,”

not knowing I’d lose all seven umbrellas.

En route to San Francisco, 

I laughed at locals for not knowing 

that wet air is not the same as rain. 

My smile slipped away with my umbrella. 

I became Medusa on the evening train, 

too scorned and poor to buy rain boots. 

I learned the trick to dry socks is: don’t wear any.

II. Past Tense

Sister and I shared underwear

until Little Mermaid’s face faded, 

secrets sewn in cotton pockets.

We both saw him coming 

through three o’clock dark,

two pillow-pressed skulls,

two thrashing mattresses 

under cheap thread count 

like arranged marriage. 

After each hurricane,

we waded floodwater, 

chasing custody, catching ducklings.

III. Elegy for the Moon

Altostratus bra straps  

adorn worn shoulders, 

flushed modest against 

sweat-stained glass sunsets. 

 

I fear I'll never see her 

crescent forehead descend 

beneath the carbon quilt. 

Where is the moon?

Her silhouette glows on

fossilized memory foam 

like our last evening leaking 

into infinite atmosphere.

 
 

Marylin Winkle is a feminist author, scholar, musician, and social change advocate. She currently resides in Los Angeles where she will soon be completing a DMA in Early Music at the University of Southern California, where she has been devoted to the study and performance of works by early-modern women.